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Title: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on June 03, 2011, 11:02:15 AM
My graduation and open house are tomorrow.

I'm going to college in the fall.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on June 03, 2011, 01:36:36 PM
http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/heat-vision/paramount-plots-next-animated-pic-194394
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on June 10, 2011, 12:25:53 PM
Anyone who's been paying attention to the things I've said recently probably knows that I have this sort of a crush or something on a certain Emmy Cicierega.  I think I must be a hopeless romantic at heart, because (as I've said before) I couldn't think much but "wow" the first time I saw a picture of her smiling.  I mean, that's weird, right?  I'm not crazy, I don't believe in stuff like "love at first sight."  But she is rather lovely.  As The Chef once noted, "she's friggin' 'fairy-tale' pretty."  At the same time, I can't honestly say I'm sexually attracted to her - I don't think I've ever been sexually attracted to anyone.  Which has gotten me honestly wondering if l'm asexual.  But whatever; that's not the main point here, because I'm not aromantic.  Or, maybe I am.  Maybe whatever feelings I think I have for her are really just my years-long lack of any sort of real friendship coming to a head.  Maybe it's less a need for romantic love and more a need for platonic love, and because she's pretty, funny, slightly geeky, and talented - which are all traits that would normally appeal to me -  these factors combine and make my emotions on the matter more intense than they would be if it were one or the other.  This makes sense when you take my personality into account, because whenever I discover something or someone for the first time and like it/him/her, I tend to be pretty intense about it.  It often makes me seem a lot more creepy and stalker-like than I really am.

However, I can't help but think I'm projecting - seeing in her what I want to see more than what's actually there.  I'm almost certain we have completely incompatible worldviews, to say nothing of the fact that the odds of our even meeting in real life are astronomical, which I guess makes it kind of a "celebrity crush" in principle (also, if you'll excuse the cliche, she's simply way out of my league).  This is where the "love makes you miserable" thing comes in.  I highly doubt that any action I could take would turn out well, but I don't want to just do nothing and regret it.  The question is, would I regret it more if I didn't do nothing?  I feel trapped.  I guess the best solution would be to recognize that it's never going to freaking happen, do my best to get over her (or more likely get over myself, if I really am just projecting), and admire her for art and her sense of fun and silliness, while at the same time not being what some would perceive as nothing more than a creepy stalker with a crush.  That seems like the best option in my mind, but I really don't know.

I guess this is partly a cry for help and partly just me venting.  I'm not sure which of those is more dominant.

Also, I hope I don't regret even posting this at all.  If I do, that would explain it if the post later gets replaced with a "disregard this, I suck" and that little message that tells you when the post was last edited.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on June 10, 2011, 02:52:21 PM
Yeah, I can sympathize with some of those feelings, even if they were for people I personally knew in my case. Still, as tough as it may sound, I think you have the right idea.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on June 10, 2011, 04:00:31 PM
TK, if you've ever played the world's highest-rated handheld game or woken up with morning wood, you are most certainly not "asexual".

As for the romanticism part, the first step is to come out of your shell (HURRR) and meet like-minded people IRL.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on June 17, 2011, 08:19:42 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GotXCyJ55gc

Language and racial stereotyping warning.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on June 18, 2011, 07:48:19 PM
Tonight I played a game on my PS2 for the first time in several months.  It had been clicking and grinding and not reading discs, but I think I may have fixed that.  Until I get a chance to test that a little more, though, I remain both eager and anxious.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Black Mage on June 18, 2011, 08:16:04 PM
Sounds more hopeful than ambivalent to me.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on June 18, 2011, 08:24:50 PM
I'm saving "hopeful" for when I'm more certain that it's resolved.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on June 25, 2011, 01:45:18 PM
I just discovered the webcomic "Devil Bear", and... yeah.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on June 25, 2011, 02:57:17 PM
Gay marriage in New York.

WEEGEE: THE VOICE OF REASON
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: nensondubois on June 27, 2011, 09:49:42 PM
Had to tear down my entire room all by myself to renovate the room above. Took 6 hours and all I got was *****ing afterwards... oh, wait, this is a mixed feelings thread. Yeah, I don't quite feel the project is going to be worth the effort.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on June 28, 2011, 08:20:32 AM
My wisdom teeth are coming out July 19th.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on June 28, 2011, 03:41:08 PM
Ooh... well, good luck there.

This (http://www.destructoid.com/resident-evil-the-mercenaries-3d-has-permanent-save-file-204687.phtml) would seem to bode ill for the future of used game sales, but I'm not sure what to think at this point.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on June 28, 2011, 04:28:57 PM
Are used game sales really that much of a threat to publishers?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: WarpRattler on June 28, 2011, 05:10:24 PM
In a word: yes (http://themushroomkingdom.net/board/index.php?topic=13281.0).
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: nensondubois on July 08, 2011, 04:30:37 PM
Spent $75 on a Gamecube Action Replay v1.08, which I needed for a long time (also came with the memory card. Must have eight of them) and now my Gamecube won't spin disks. Guess I'll to shell out an extra 20 for an older model Gamecube to use my Service Disk.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on July 08, 2011, 05:27:50 PM
now my Gamecube won't spin disks.

I thought you needed the DJ add-on for that.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: WarpRattler on July 08, 2011, 07:00:20 PM
I just made a Google+ account.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Pt_Peach on July 08, 2011, 08:19:05 PM
I get tinea versicolor whenever I visit humid places, even for just a week. I hate humidity...but its so ugly.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on July 08, 2011, 09:30:58 PM
My dad had that for a while when I was a little kid... and now I finally know how to spell it.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: CrossEyed7 on July 08, 2011, 09:49:06 PM
I have a bachelor's degree in communication (film concentration) and $90,000+ of debt, and am currently living with my parents and working as a cashier.

And now I think I want to be a lawyer.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on July 08, 2011, 09:57:15 PM
$90,000?! How does that even happen?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on July 08, 2011, 09:57:35 PM
There's no way that can be right!
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: CrossEyed7 on July 08, 2011, 10:32:48 PM
It's not right, but it is the correct amount. If I'd known that the government thought my family was rich, I probably wouldn't have gone to a $30,000-a-year college. No financial aid because my dad makes too much; only an $8,000-a-year scholarship for grades.

Also, I never got a job on campus, because I was really stupid.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on July 15, 2011, 05:06:01 PM
I registered for my fall term classes today.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on July 15, 2011, 05:10:46 PM
*Cough* (http://themushroomkingdom.net/board/index.php?topic=13202.120)
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: WarpRattler on July 15, 2011, 05:28:00 PM
I stopped in at GameStop earlier to ask about whether they were including the bonus materials with Catherine preorders. They were, but they told me they had just ended preorders of the limited edition...

...but then, while looking around, I found they still had the DeathSmiles limited edition for $10 more than a regular new copy. So I'm probably getting that tomorrow (and finally cementing that whole "getting a 360" thing).
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on July 18, 2011, 05:10:37 PM
Darnit... (http://finance.yahoo.com/news/Borders-Calls-Off-Auction-nytimes-1678947798.html?x=0)
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: nensondubois on July 18, 2011, 09:34:52 PM
You can thank E-books for that.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on July 18, 2011, 11:59:15 PM
What a shame... We occasionally go to Watertown, New York on shopping trips because everything costs at least thirty percent less in the States. Borders had just about the best selection of books and music of any store in town.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on August 05, 2011, 09:05:27 AM
I've started watching My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on August 05, 2011, 08:15:30 PM
I don't know you anymore.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on August 05, 2011, 08:59:17 PM
So you're saying I have nothing to lose if I change my avatar to Fluttershy?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: WarpRattler on August 22, 2011, 10:30:24 PM
Today was my first day of work proper, actually taking calls and such. It was a nightmare up until the point where I resolved a customer's issue. Then I felt like the Fist of the North Star.

Tomorrow it'll be a nightmare again for a bit, but it should be better than today was.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on August 22, 2011, 10:32:04 PM
I've started watching My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic.
Probably a little late to say this, but I'd just like to note that in hindsight this post should've gone in The HOPEFUL Thread.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on September 06, 2011, 08:35:54 PM
I have a Facebook account.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: TEM on September 07, 2011, 12:16:25 PM
The recommended specs for RAGE are far below what my machine is capable of. I'll be able to play the game for sure, but I like the idea that the beauty of the game is taxing my system, which it won't be; unless the max settings are god-like and worthy of my computer. I feel very conflicted about all of this.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: WarpRattler on September 07, 2011, 01:37:39 PM
It's possible id Tech 5 is actually optimized well, unlike Every Other Graphics Engine Out There. That would explain it having lower requirements.

I do remember hearing PC is the primary development platform for the game, so that would explain some of it as well. Alternatively, it's possible id neutered the graphics quality of the game so it would be on par with consoles, but I guess John Carmack is all about the PC, so that doesn't seem likely.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on January 18, 2012, 04:38:29 PM
Bad things that have happened lately:

--My great-grandpa died
--My best friend broke up with his girlfriend of over a year. In our talking, he confessed that he also dated and uncereminously broke up with the first girl I was into in high school, and later had sex with the other.
--I'm pretty sure I bombed my first Japanese test, and I'm not 100% confident about the story review I turned in for English 284

Good things that have happened lately:
--I figured out that I live a few blocks from the biggest indie video store in America.
--There's a steady stream of CDs coming in at the library for me.
--I'm now regularly texting in Japanese to a girl who sits next to me in said class.

Good/bad things that have happened lately:
--SOPA blackout
--It's snowing (which is awesome for lots of reasons), but that means stuff is closed and/or slippery all over the place)
--The same day my great-grandpa died, my aunt fractured her leg and went to hospital, where she figured out she was pregnant.

So yeah, stuff's happenin' in Super ShadowBrain World.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on January 18, 2012, 06:13:17 PM
My condolences about your great-grandfather.



texting in Japanese
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: BriGuy92 on January 18, 2012, 09:14:26 PM
texting in Japanese
Huh. Far as I know, my phone can't do Japanese. Would be useful, though. Then again, if I could text in Japanese, I'd run the risk of going full weeaboo. Blech.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: ShadowBrain on January 19, 2012, 02:04:12 PM
I'm sorry, I should've been more specific--romanized Japanese.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Turtlekid1 on August 27, 2012, 02:37:12 PM
So I had taken this job as a Peer Mentor at my school this summer.  Only now am I starting to get an idea of what I'm in for - lots of things to plan, events to organize...  It's gonna be a crazy ride and I doubt I'm fully prepared but I think I'm going to enjoy it.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Markio on August 27, 2012, 08:46:22 PM
I am searching for jobs halfway across the country so that I can move to a place where there's good mass transit and very good improvisation classes.  I am about $26000 in student loan debt, and I have to start making payments in November, so I'd like to land a job and be doing stuff by then.

Part of me thinks it would be even more convenient to stay put and live at home with my dad in the middle of nowhere and somehow find a job in the local area.  I would be putting my dreams on hold and probably wouldn't talk to people my own age for years, let alone talk to gay people.

I am determined to find a job, yet I find the task to be very daunting/vague/challenging, especially since I'm not anywhere near the geographic location in which I want to work.  I would also have to pay for an apartment there, whereas at home I would not.  Curse the financial allure of not pursuing dreams!!!
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Qwerty on September 05, 2012, 08:33:56 PM
I'm converting to vegetarianism. To what extent though, I'm not really sure. Right now I'm avoiding any meat and flesh, but not like broth or milk or anything like that.  It's going to be an interesting first month.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on October 20, 2012, 10:11:13 AM
Began working at a dollar store yesterday.

Everything still hurts from standing for eight hours.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: CrossEyed7 on October 20, 2012, 01:14:17 PM
It'll do that.

How often do you get customers asking you for price checks?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on October 20, 2012, 01:22:02 PM
None so far, incredibly enough. Mind you, the items range in price from two-for-a-dollar to three dollars. It's a dollar store in spirit only.

Also, the manager urged us to "put down our hours" so we get paid for them, but he didn't specify when or where to do that.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Luigison on October 20, 2012, 01:43:25 PM
I suggest investing in some good walking shoes.  I've found New Balance to be good, but S.A.S. to be the best.  Some inserts might help, but aren't a replacement for good shoes.  For best results go for the least restrictive lightest weight walking shoe.  Steer clear of running and dress shoes.  Compression socks might also help.  You might also want to consider a low dose aspirin and fish oil.  These will increase circulation while decreasing inflammation. 
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: CrossEyed7 on October 20, 2012, 02:59:41 PM
Stores with "Dollar" in the name that are not actually dollar stores are one of my pet peeves.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Hello:) on November 22, 2012, 12:48:28 PM
There was a fire near me. However, it didn't reach us. Thank god.
And now it's behind some houses.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Ym9iYnlzcTEzMzc equalsign on November 25, 2012, 02:47:37 AM
I recently bought Sonic 4: Episode I for my phone.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Red Lewd Uganda on November 30, 2012, 04:21:34 PM
I recently saw a person with albinism in public, and my first thought was to reach for a Poké Ball. Is that wrong?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on November 30, 2012, 06:05:50 PM
There's no "wrong" when it comes to shinies, son.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Red Lewd Uganda on December 11, 2012, 01:37:04 AM
I love this (https://earthbuilder.google.com/10446176163891957399-13737975182519107424-4/mapview/) sort of thing, but note the contrast between North and South Korea. :(

Lastly, note the unusual bright spot over Williston, North Dakota. Drill, baby! Drill!
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Luigison on January 26, 2013, 09:53:23 AM
(https://themushroomkingdom.net/board/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FSwf4k.png&hash=48efbc3d664fb620d3b945f4f7d2cf44)

Neutral for the Win!
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Post by: Suffix on January 26, 2013, 05:13:45 PM
Ah! "Bigot" is spelled wrong, thus the argument is invalid and will be ignored in favor of more self-serving "logic."
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 06, 2013, 05:50:39 AM
I've been consuming under 1000 calories per day this week, but can't bring myself to do any meaningful exercise. Being hungry all the time probably doesn't help.

Aldo, I haven't slept in 27 hours, perhaps due partially to the hunger. My eyes are like hot coals.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: BP on March 06, 2013, 05:27:06 PM
Both dieting and exercise get easier the longer you do them routinely without giving up. And it's easier to not give up if you just do what's within your reach and eat better and better/work out harder and harder as you can and not try to just be where you want to be all at once. Starving yourself like that is probably not the best idea...

Related, I'm just getting back into exercising now because being awake so many hours a day sees me getting hungry and eating more than I did. I hadn't been getting any exercise in months but never gained any weight back because I ate so little and so well. I don't want the weight back and don't want to stop Everymanning so I made a barbell out of some water-filled milk jugs, a wooden curtain rod and electrical tape and am doing sit-ups and squats. Covers just about all the bases.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 06, 2013, 05:37:00 PM
I'd probably sell myself short by going for what's within my reach. I'd rather do push-ups until the pain is unbearable and squats until my ankles are about to sprain due to my slight knock-kneedness.

Good ideas about the DIY equipment -- I'd really rather not go to a gym at this point.

Oddly enough, I've been awake since 8:00 AM yesterday, but have long stopped feeling hungry. Mind you, I can't think straight, and barely know what I'm typing right now.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 09, 2013, 03:52:48 PM
Went 1.5 miles in 20 minutes, which supposedly killed 180 calories. Sad thing is, that's barely a "warm-up" by workout standards, but I'm already exhausted. My legs have been sore for the last five days. When will I magically become "addicted" to exercise like /fit/ says I will?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Luigison on March 09, 2013, 06:09:58 PM
I don't know when it will happen.  The last time I was addicted to exercise (weight lifting, racket ball, push-ups, sit-ups, etc.) I was in high school and junior college.  I was addicted to riding my mountain bike around Southern California for a while though.  Now the most exercise I get is waling up and down two flights of stairs several times a day and pushing a lawnmower in the Summer. 
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 10, 2013, 09:00:12 PM
Walked a little under four kilometres (2.3 miles) without stopping today.

God I hate exercise.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Markio on March 10, 2013, 09:15:59 PM
If only staying put was even worse.  Maybe that's why I like going for walks: I live with my brother in his dingy apartment, and walks are an escape from that physical space (and also provide thinking time free from distraction).

I'm moving to the city in the beginning of April.  I'm simultaneously excited and nervous.
Pros:
-I'll be in the gayborhood, with plenty more opportunities to meet gay people.
-I'll have my own bed, which I will keep clean (unlike my brother's couch, where I currently sleep).
-I won't have to commute two hours via bicycle and train to rehearsal and work (assuming I can transfer jobs)
-Sleep will be uninterrupted!
-I'll have the space to paint again.
Cons:
-I'm trying to transfer job locations, which might not work.  If not, I have to find another job.
-The rent is my paycheck.
-Despite all the benefits of moving, I feel like it won't solve my "what-are-you-doing-with-your-life" problem.  Maybe having more friends in their 20s will make me feel better about being a barista?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 11, 2013, 02:49:57 PM
Why do gay people always congregate in urban gaybourhoods? Why not gayburbs or rural gayfarms?

Back to fitness, I can't run. I can walk until the cows come home, but I have to stop to catch my breath every hundred feet running or even jogging. Something about the full-body motion required for anything more than a brisk walk leaves me winded.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 29, 2013, 01:21:08 PM
I went down from 242 pounds to 222 in a month, but haven't shed a single pound in the last week.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Luigison on March 29, 2013, 01:59:09 PM
But are you decreasing in volume?  Are your pants loser?  That is, if you are exercising you could be gaining muscle which is more dense than fat making it look like you are not progressing.  Have you been using a caliper or method of measuring your body mass index?   
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 29, 2013, 06:30:06 PM
Seeing as I'm just walking briskly, I don't I'm gaining muscle. My pants loosened gradually over the past month, but haven't any more this week. My BMI is down from 31.5 (obese) to 28.6 (severely overweight).

I've also been told I'm undereating. Today I had two bananas and a steak, and I don't plan on having more. Not eating green vegetables probably doesn't help.



How're you coming along, BP?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: BP on March 30, 2013, 02:41:06 AM
Great. I'd stayed around/under 180 for a long long time without doing anything but eating properly, and have been keeping it in check since changing my sleep schedule (I may be gaining muscle now though, I can't really tell from looking). I can pull off a Medium shirt now, as my once-snug Larges are getting looser and the XLs I can't believe I used to wear normally in high school drape over me. Kind of a shame, because I have Viewtiful Joe's un-henshined shirt and a shirt with DemiDog from Gunshow on it and can't wear them as anything but pajamas anymore, and now I need a lot of new clothes, again. I hope I don't sound like I'm boasting. It's just amazing-feeling, I'm proud of myself, and I never want the weight back. Or the heartburn, a thing I so rarely have now and do not miss. It's worth the effort to build the fortress and defend it.

For you, yeah I would recommend vegetables. From what's worked for me, I think diet is more important than exercise, which doesn't mean starve yourself and eat the same things in minimal quantities, but change what you eat. Which is something I was able to do thanks in no small part to my family... for the last couple of years, we've shopped almost only for the groceries we need for the week according to recipes picked out in advance--healthy stuff, lots of chicken, fish at least once every week, much less beef and pasta, grilled and baked stuff with low sodium--and stuck to that. It's cheaper too.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 30, 2013, 04:30:56 AM
Unfortunately, I can't stand vegetables besides the starchy, barely-healthy ones like rice, corn, and potatoes. Salad makes me gag. Between that and trying to limit my carbs as much as possible, there's not much I can eat. Some people have been suggesting the ketogenic diet, but I want something sustainable in the long-term.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: BP on March 30, 2013, 10:29:09 AM
There may be some reality in "learn to love it." I used to have to really force myself to down broccoli simply because I knew I had to eat it, and wouldn't even go near it if it were cooked. Now it's enjoyable, even. As far as salad, how about spinach? Spinach, onion, dried berries, pine nuts topped with a little crumbled goat cheese and Asian sesame ginger dressing makes for my favorite salad ever. I despise canned vegetables but like some frozen ones. I also really like beets and parsnips, raw or cooked. I crave nuts a lot, probably because of the protein I don't get from eating so much less red meat.

Do whatever you want, but I'd say go for cramming 'em down your throat, stay strong, and see if Stockholm Syndrome kicks in eventually. Not that I don't understand, and no it's not easy. It doesn't make any sense that the body doesn't naturally become ravenous for foods that are good for it. What the hell, biology.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 30, 2013, 08:30:57 PM
Tough love, but you're probably right.

I may have to get a gym membership. The temptation to put down my water-filled milk jugs and go back to the computer is nearly insurmountable for me.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: PaperLuigi on March 30, 2013, 09:50:50 PM
Oh, we're talking about dieting? I weighed 175 pounds in high school (overweight according to BMI charts) and was able to slim down to 140 by eating just 1,800 calories a day and walking everywhere. It certainly upped my self-esteem, but I've also become quite obsessive about my appearance. If I don't walk or run, I feel extremely unattractive. Better than feeling unattractive all of the time I suppose? *shrugs* Take that as you will.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on March 31, 2013, 04:00:23 AM
We went out for dinner last night. According to the .pdf on their website, I consumed about 1000 calories and 50% of the daily suggested fat intake. Haven't eaten since. Every time I look at food, I just equate it with having to walk more laps around the block.

Do you think sleeping through breakfast and lunch four days a week is taking a toll on my metabolism?
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Post by: Suffix on March 31, 2013, 08:35:29 AM
It certainly did for me when I was in college. Eating less is no replacement for moving less, I'm afraid.
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Post by: Luigison on March 31, 2013, 11:21:44 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HA00ZctGz50
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Post by: Weegee on March 31, 2013, 02:39:23 PM
I have no problem dealing with hunger. Yesterday I woke up at 2, had a quarter chicken (white) and fries (I know, I know...) for dinner, and stayed up for another 12 hours without eating anything more. Getting 2000 calories in me every day while avoiding carbs and sugar has become the hard part. Vegetables have next to none and lean meat only has so many, so what's a man to do?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Insane Steve on April 03, 2013, 10:14:21 PM
Grading papers a couple days ago. One problem involves the salaries of two recently hired people (teaching arithmetic/geometric sequences). One of these people is named Neveah, which I personally consider to be the single worst semi-popular name ever created for either sex (and the fact that my spell-checker thinks it is misspelled, whereas, say, Steve is not makes me happy).

For what it's worth, there's exactly one issue I know of that I consider myself socially authoritarian on, and that's naming children. I'm sorry that you feel that your creativity is stifled by not being able to name your kid Ffffffteple'qweuioand-a, but you aren't the person who has to live with that name (for what it's worth, I think I'd rather be named Ffffffteple'qweuioand-a than Neveah, though).

Upon further inspection, I discover this person is not named Neveah, but rather "Navaeh" -- meaning that not only do they have the worst name in human history, they have an intentionally misspelled "special snowflake" variant of the worst name in human history, and that I've graded a couple dozen of these tests and spelled the name wrong on all of them. "Having excellent spelling" is pretty explicitly listed as an Important Thing in the company handbook for instructors.

I then realise that the word I've been misspelling this entire time is freaking "Navaeh" and I laugh and go "whatever, my handwriting is so bad most people can't tell my a's and e's apart anyways haha" and not a single [dukar] was given.

EDIT: As for losing weight, I discovered that since that one thing that happened to me a couple weeks ago where I almost died occurred I've not eaten a lot and my weight which had been steadily climbing is going back down again. Wait, now I just realised I never mentioned that one thing that happened to me a couple weeks ago where I almost died, I should probably do that.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on April 03, 2013, 11:04:27 PM
It's racist to only use normal names.
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Post by: Luigison on April 04, 2013, 03:25:03 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9TWt_9ARrg

I wish I could find the complete section of the above video that goes into how names affect people's employment opportunities.  If you can find it, I highly suggest watching the whole video. 

Edit:  If you are an Amazon Prime member you can watch it for free:  http://www.amazon.com/Freakonomics/dp/B0041RBNPE
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Post by: Insane Steve on April 04, 2013, 03:48:45 PM
For what it's worth I've heard that's a correlation/causation sort of thing, like iirc literally the only statistically significant factor in predicting how successful someone will be is how successful their parents are (land of opportunity lol), and the types of parents who give their children awful names tend to not be from the most successful families. On the other hand, I know firsthand that my mom's boss immediately bins all resumes with "ethnic" sounding names without reading them, so there might be a hint of truth to it, who knows.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Tavros on April 28, 2013, 07:09:01 PM
I have a gay friend.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on April 28, 2013, 07:22:12 PM
Don't we all sometimes?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Tavros on April 28, 2013, 07:46:19 PM
My crush told me that he was gay, too. EDIT: My crush isn't a guy. She just knows him.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Weegee on April 28, 2013, 10:15:00 PM
He doesn't tell that to the prettier gir--

BAD WEEGEE
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Markio on April 29, 2013, 10:48:51 AM
Do you have mixed feelings about their gayness?  Does your crush's sexuality open up an opportunity, or erase one?

I miss the friends I made in college, and the convenience of hanging out when in college, but I don't miss being in college.  I didn't realize life after college entailed extra effort to find constructive things to do, and initiating hang outs with friends.  Before I could just sit in a classroom or club meeting and do all that.  Now I'm not limited to what's at school, but there's a whole world out there.  Not sure how I feel about that: excited, or wary.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Tavros on April 29, 2013, 12:40:09 PM
His parents are Catholic, so yeah.
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Post by: PaperLuigi on April 29, 2013, 05:07:00 PM
That's rough, man. You'll have other crushes though, hopefully ones with more accepting parents.

Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Tavros on April 30, 2013, 03:38:56 PM
...My crush is a woman. I am not bi. EDIT: Actually I might be.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: The Chef on April 30, 2013, 04:36:10 PM
His parents are Catholic, so yeah.

My crush told me that he was gay, too.

...My crush is a woman. I am not bi.

?????????????
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Tavros on April 30, 2013, 04:40:24 PM
Look at my post again.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: PaperLuigi on April 30, 2013, 07:35:37 PM
oh

oooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ambiguous statement lol
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Markio on May 01, 2013, 12:26:22 AM
So you have a crush on a woman, and this woman told you that your platonic, Catholic-raised, male friend is gay.  Did I solve the puzzle?
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: CrossEyed7 on May 01, 2013, 01:00:31 AM
Pronouns are fun!
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: BriGuy92 on May 01, 2013, 01:21:30 AM
I installed OS X on my Thinkpad. One one hand, cool, Mac OS on a non-Mac computer! On the other hand, why have I done this.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Tavros on May 01, 2013, 04:47:40 AM
So you have a crush on a woman, and this woman told you that your platonic, Catholic-raised, male friend is gay.  Did I solve the puzzle?
Yes
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: bobbysq1337 on May 01, 2013, 11:53:27 AM
I couldn't find my SMG2 disk, so I downloaded it and ran it on Dolphin. The wiimote wouldn't work right, so I had to use a gamepad.

Mario on an Xbox controller and mouse combo feels so wrong, but I'm glad to be able to play the game again.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Luigison on May 01, 2013, 03:42:58 PM
I couldn't find my SMG2 disk, so I downloaded it and ran it on Dolphin. The wiimote wouldn't work right, so I had to use a gamepad.

Mario on an Xbox controller and mouse combo feels so wrong, but I'm glad to be able to play the game again.
Shouldn't this be in confessions? 
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: bobbysq1337 on May 02, 2013, 06:22:14 AM
Shouldn't this be in confessions?
Not really, since I was feeling more neutral about it than wrong about it. Besides, the controls are actually pretty nice for using the wrong controller.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Ultima Shadow on May 07, 2013, 04:47:06 AM
Not really, since I was feeling more neutral about it than wrong about it. Besides, the controls are actually pretty nice for using the wrong controller.

Agreed. I played Brawl with the Xbox pad for a while and it's about 100x more comfortable than most of the other ways I've tried. Was never really a fan of the 'Cube controller, but the 360 one just feels right.
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Post by: Luigison on May 07, 2013, 02:22:08 PM
I have recently grown to enjoy using the 360 controller on Steam, but the Cube controller is better for certain games due to it's analog triggers. 

I wish the Wii U had analog triggers.  That would make racing around in LEGO City more controllable.  Also, I think my Wii U analog stick have some play in them.  Anyone else seem to have a dead space in the center?
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Post by: BP on May 07, 2013, 02:34:31 PM
360 controllers have analog triggers.
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Post by: bobbysq1337 on June 08, 2013, 08:52:32 AM
Now I'm using Dolphin's "Hybrid Wiimote" option since I can connect the controller, but I need to use the mouse for IR since the Wiimote one is not working for some reason.

Still kind of liking the 360 controller, but it sucked for controlling Yoshi since the pointer was mapped to the right stick.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: Suffix on June 08, 2013, 04:17:05 PM
Funny, I bought a 360 controller mostly for Skyrim back in December. Having it available is making me rethink my stance on TPSes, such as Mass Effect, or in part, Deus Ex.
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Post by: BP on September 08, 2014, 07:33:03 PM
From HOPEFUL: Dead Rising 3 hype and PC elitism

The bad news is that DR3 has come out and my PC doesn't run it fast enough for it to be playable, regardless of graphics settings. It's poorly optimized enough that, with the framerate uncapped, it bounces around from 30fps to 60fps on a 2000-dollar machine. Which I don't have. So I'm getting what I think looks like 10fps or lower, and played about 15 minutes' worth of the game in two real hours. It wasn't crashing every ten minutes like other people have been reporting, but it just isn't playable on my computer.

But it's no wonder, because my graphics card is really out-of-date and was already pretty cheap when I got it. Almost every game I've gotten on Steam in the intervening time has run nicely... I often get a better framerate in Dark Souls 2 on my PC than I ever did in anything on 360. But, I ought to have expected to need to upgrade sooner than later. So the good news is that this is only a wake-up call that my PC is due for an upgrade, which will cost a hell of a lot less than buying a new console, will affect all the Steam games I can already play for the better, and will probably get me DR3 running better than the Xbone can do.
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Post by: Weegee on September 08, 2014, 10:23:05 PM
Jeez, seems to be a widespread issue. They should have playtested it on mediocre PCs.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: WarpRattler on September 09, 2014, 04:04:01 AM
There's no reason to playtest a game originally designed for the Xbone on systems weaker than the Xbone.

They should've playtested it on systems that should actually be able to run it, though. That kind of inconsistent framerate is unacceptable.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: BP on September 09, 2014, 12:55:00 PM
Well, it began development "with high-end PCs in mind" before Microsoft bought its exclusiveness. I dunno if that changed anything much, though. It runs at 30fps on the bone sometimes, drops to 20 or less if any action is happening. Models render late and textures pop in constantly...which happened in 360 Dead Rising 2 all the time as well. I'm not saying my PC should be able to run it with this graphics card, I'm saying it's pretty poorly put-together in general just like its predecessor, and maybe if it weren't, it would have run fine.

Also keep in mind that it is "acceptable" in Capcom's eyes that it does that on a 2000-dollar machine because it bounces from at least 30 to anything above it. There's no in-game option to uncap the framerate. You can do it and they've acknowledged you can, but it involves creating a user.ini that doesn't already exist. It's supposed to run at 30. Which is pretty stupid and ought to be considered unacceptable in 2014. It's probably what I'll get if I drop $150 on a graphics card that slightly outclasses the one listed as "recommended" for the game and greatly outclasses the one I have now.
Title: Re: The AMBIVALENT Thread: Have Mixed Feelings Here!
Post by: BP on April 13, 2015, 05:54:59 PM
Right after this (http://themushroomkingdom.net/board/index.php?topic=9327.msg615020#msg615020), my drawing tablet broke. The monitor started flickering weakly. These things aren't cheap and I've really lost the feel for the traditional mouse pad-like tablet. I thought it might be a wiring problem and had my dad take a look at it, but he found nothing he could fix and it was looking like I'd need to buy a new one. Although we got the flickering to stop and the monitor was just extremely dark. Too dark to use. I came to terms with that but I hate wasting good parts, so I dismantled it further thinking "at least I could probably slide the still-functional part of this thing that handles the pen input inside my laptop's screen or something." And that did work, albeit awkwardly and in a way that would murder my shoulder quickly. In the midst of all that, though, I found another part that got me curious (it instantly had me curious because it plugged into the circuit boards and anything like that has me going "ooo what's this do") and it turned out to be the backlight. Which was broken. I can get a new one of these and replace it for much less than buying an all-new tablet.

tl;dr my expensive and important [dukar] is broken. but i can fix it myself instead of buying a new one.