I'm posting this here not because I am complaining about anything, but because I'm confused and in turmoil. Today I received a message on facebook from an old friend from highschool (we weren't tight friends, but we were more than acquiantances, she was a fellow art student). After we left and graduated highschool, I let her have this book called DMT: The Spirit Molecule by Rick Strassman Phd. It is about a docter's goverment funded research on the affects of DMT in the early 1990's. Probably one of the more in depth books/studies on the subject I've ever seen. She's had the book ever since.
I never thought about the extent of my influence on people until now. I always thought whenever I went on about a subject I always had little impression on people, but that was when I wasn't talking about something I was knowledgable in.
She is a beautifle girl. She wants to hang out during this summer again. And I might even want to hook-up with her. But I'm having conflicted interests. On one hand, since I've been sober so long, I don't want to be responsible for turning a perfectly innocent girl into some festy skank. Although DMT is the least of my worries (I have no idea what else she's done) because she seemed fine when I talked to her, DMT is non-adictive but the most powerful hallucinogenic known to man. I would feel awful if at some festival she was to try some dirty research chemical like 2C-B, or 2C-I. I've been there before, and its not pretty.
My next conflict is that one of my good friends tried to hook-up with her before, he got close but things didn't work out. I have to find a way to make him understand that it didn't work out, and that her and I have more in common. I don't know how to put it though, because the jist of it is that she didn't want him because he was too nice, and when he see's me with her, he's going to understand that she wanted me because I'm the "bad-boy'/risk-taker.
Andbody got any advice?
