The (main) group of people I'm a part of, whose ages range from the mid teens to early twenties, are mostly virgins, which is understandable since we're all young and mostly total dorks. I am the only one out of them, however, to have been single for over a year and a half now, and thinking about that makes me feel bad and also very lonely.
[!!!DANGER ZONE!!! Whining about my only attempt at a relationship warning. If you actually want to read the story of something that's probably my fault for staying with her, you can try.] I've also been remembering lately how badly my ex treated me in retrospect, and how that's negatively effected my views on relationships, and intimacy, and that kind of stuff. I never told you guys that story, did I? Basically, I stayed with her even after she told me she was into my friend, because she started crying and stuff so I figured that meant she cared about me, and when I brought it up she told me not to worry about it. And then she started being mean to me while at the same time being super nice and friendly to said friend in front of me, and immediately afterwards she ignored and avoided me for days instead of actually dumping me, and then talking bad about me to my friend, who showed me a screencap. She then told me that it's over after I confronted her about that. Nowadays, I'm afraid that I'll be much too possessive in future relationships because I'm really afraid of something like this happening to me again, especially since my best friend happens to be taller, stronger, and more well known (and well liked) than I am. When I hear about cheating, or a suggestion of a girl being "stolen" by someone "better" or whatever, I get this really, really enraged and sickened feeling (although that might be normal). At least my friend was a total bro about the whole thing and told her off immediately after she finally dumped me.[/DANGER ZONE]
Sorry about all that stupid teenage drama stuff, and I'm honestly a total chump for staying with her after she admitted she liked my friend even after she started crying. But, uh, yeah, that's the only time I've ever experienced >tfw gf so far.
