I have a few things that've been bothering me. I know I've posted about most of them before, but I thought I would post again, since it helps to talk.. type about it.
This is part of a letter that I sent my student advisor. I am failing that one class again, and will likely be put on academic probation, which means I would have one semester to bring my grades up, or consider expellment. It's not that I'm a bad student, it's that I have poor/no study habits. I'll often get on the computer and visit other websites (such as this one) instead of doing my homework, and often, by the time I remember to look things up for my homework, it's time to pack up and go home so I can go to bed and get ready for work.
My advisor asked me what I though a few things were that I could do to improve my study habits.. (warning: lengthy post ahead)..
Well, this really wasn't mandatory, but up until a couple of weeks ago, my fiancee and I lived 20 minutes away from my parents (who have the internet connection so that I can go to class, you know..) I often would drive to work, drive to our apartment and get a shower, and then come back across town with as much laundry and school work as I could carry. This would often come at the expense of my sleep. I would sit there for hours, looking at the assignments, and then write them down/mark pages/etc to make sure I didn't forget, but then a few days later.. well, you already know the rest. :/
Anyway, I thus started losing interest, and didn't have any motivation to drive myself across town every day or every other day. I would just sit at my apartment and play video games, think about how I wished that we had an internet connection, and then go to bed and often repeat the process.
We now live very close to my parents and are talking about getting an internet connection in our place, so doing assignments should be easier. I will still carry my books and things with me, so as to act like I am going to class (because, well, that's what I'm doing).
I was a little depressed there for awhile, and it seems to have lingered on longer than I would have liked. I think it's a combo of not liking my job and not getting enough sleep (which makes me a bit irrate toward friends and family).
I am hoping to change all that, starting with this next term, because I know I don't have the marks to pass this class this term. There's no chance of extra credit, and I am really having a problem finding a piece of hardware that will work with my computer (I want my Windows XP back).
I am going to look for a new job and try to go to bed early enough to get more sleep than I've been getting. Now that I live closer, it should be easier to attend classes until I get my own internet connection.