It's a series a couple months of little things with no positives at all to search for:
Today, I went to work (I work as a lifeguard at our town's public pool), and I was on stand on top of one of the waterslides. A few of the off-duty guards, one of who, I absolutely cannot stand whatsoever, took it upon themselves to constantly act like total jerks and break practically every pool rule going down the slide. Including stealing my guard tube and trying to slide down on it. Note that there's about a dozen children on the slide watching this.
So, after about 15 minutes of this crap, they all finally decide to go down the slide, all at once, which is really dangerous and against pool rules, obviously. I had it with them, and I shouted, about as loud as I could, "I HATE ALL OF YOU!" and flung my visor off the top of the slide in anger.
Oh, it turned out the superintendent of the town's parks and recreation department was there to hear me scream this at these off-duty guards. And I scared just about every child on the slide at the time I was there. I wound up getting a written reprimand because these complete idiots guards drove me to shout at them. And this may seriously jeopardize any chance I have of getting re-hired, becuase, you know, the superintendent was there. Granted, the guards that acted like this were treated similarly, but still. These people KNEW I was getting fed up with them, and persisted anyways until I did something serious enough to warrant disciplinary action. And then they walk up to me about 5 minutes after I tried to explain this to the manager and superintendent, and apologise like nothing happened. Screw them.
This crap happens all the time to me. Every single time I do anything good, it gets minimised to nothing. All my bad traits are immensely amplified until people start to notice and think I'm a bad person. I'm absolutely sick of this. All of it.
I wish it were 5 years from now, because adolescence so far has absolutely no redeeming features whatsoever for me. I mean, things like this are petty compared to what a lot of people go through, but I was cursed with an obscenely short fuse when dealing with hardship or other people.