No, I *DO* understand you wish to keep your hairstyle. But the fact that you've said you think you're "ugly", and that you also don't wish to change your appearance seems contradicting to me.
Having poor body-image is one thing, but *wanting* poor body-image is another. (Which, even if you don't realize you actually *want* to think poorly of yourself, your actions point to it, so subconsiously you are.)
*Wanting* to think poorly of yourself seems absolutely insane to me. All I'm saying is, don't complain (I realize you didn't complain) about something if you're not willing to change it--and it's within your control.
I probably sound like a jerk now... I'm not trying to be... I just try to help people with poor body-image (which is how you see YOURSELF, not the way others see you) to think better of themselves.
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Deep inside us all is a little green elf telling us to burn things.