I would think the closer you are to a person, the harder it is to lose them. I think what makes it easier, though, is if you make peace with losing them before they're actually gone, making the best of the remaining time you have with them. That may be why is wasn't as hard for you, Solid. Unfortunately, we don't always have that luxury, and not only do we feel a loss knowing we won't see them again (in this lifetime), but we feel another loss, that we didn't get the chance to get to know them better, to say goodbye--or that we had the chance, but took it for granted.
I've never had anyone really close to me die, although I can imagine what it's like. I hope things get better for you guys (whoops, this isn't the HOPEFUL thread); they will in time.
I can't understand RPG lingo. Then again I don't care much.
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