I have to get this out, so I apologize now if it's long...
I hate that I come here, and it feels like I'm helpless. I hate that I cannot do anything at all to contribute to TMk because of something another person did to me. I feel bad that I have put all you viewers and staff at an inconvinence, and it kills me to not post anything. I see something, I want to come here and write a news article or a blog, and other priorities don't allow me to concentrate enough to do so. At work, everything is managed to the point that I'm surprised I can even come here and post what I'm posting now. It's like everything is against me doing what I love to do, and there's nothing I can do to change that- for now.
I don't know if many, or any, of you understand the deep passion I have for journalism. I started in the online business in 2002 and never looked back since. I went from being a regular news poster to becoming a webmaster of my own semi-popular website that took me to places I never imagined. Eventually, I moved onto a more mainstream venture, and finally I broke back into Nintendo's world when TMK contacted me. This was perfect for me. As you all should know (and if you don't simply go to youtube.com/superjessemario to find out) I love all things Mario. Mario games have been my comfort in times of trial, where my happiness is tested, and usually that's what keeps me sane. However, my current situation has even pushed that one solace aside, and has also taken away my chance to express that passion, something I was enjoying doing on TMK.
it's frustrating. I've never been in a situation where I've been so limited, yet so helpless. I know it seems like I'm overstating my point, but I really do miss coming on here, seeing all this work I wanted to do, and then doing it only to find something else I wanted to do. If it was up to me, I'd tell Deezer to show me everything about this site so I could do everything on this site with ease, but now...That won't be possible. I'm not saying that I'm gone for good (and you know I will never do or say such a thing), but even being gone these few weeks has really hurt me.
I hope this serves as a warning to young lovers, to make sure they know what they want out of life before they try and take a bite of it, because if you do not know, and you jump the gun, you may just end up like me.
In the end, I will prevail, but the battle is so hard sometimes, I just wonder to myself if I'll still care at that end.
Rant over.