I've really had it with this job. It's very stressful to start a new job in a new environment with no real prior experience, and without much emotional support from friends (who are far away) or family (who are either far away, died, or lack adequate listening skills). The same guy I had mentioned before is sometimes OK, but then in busy, crowded situations where I make a mistake he reacts like I'm a total idiot. It's certainly not an encouraging response to get from a coworker. It makes me feel like quitting, which I don't want to do because I need the money and because I don't want to let one guy control my whole outlook toward this job.
During my last shift I spent my break crying behind the building. Toward the end of the day this one female coworker said to me suddenly, "I like you, I don't want you to leave." That made me sad, because part of me feels like I'm just nervous for being new and I'm letting this one jerk outweigh all the nice people I work with. I know that if his criticism persists, I'm going to have to say something to him. Confronting people about hurting my feelings is the hardest thing for me to do, because I'm Catholic and was taught that my feelings aren't as important as making everyone else happy, which I understand cognitively to be a totally stupid idea. If I don't say anything, he'll continue to be rude.
And for the record, I was expecting at least one other gay guy to be working at a coffee shop. Nope, I'm the token gay barista! All the other guys just talk about fantasy football! I really miss my friends...