I think whether you're a good, generous person or a self-righteous narcissus, there's something weirdly specific that you want to have. And not something corny like true love, or world peace, or a clone of Mr. Rogers, or to travel the world. Even if it genuinely comes after stuff like that, I think we all want something wasteful and unnecessary and expensive. And not money, either--money is just a resource with which you can get such frivolous bull[dukar]. Forget about money and fame and experiences and other people's well-being for this topic. Judge no one for not wishing to cure AIDS. There's a thing you've fantasized in detail about having, maybe even so far as to assert that one day you'll have it. And I think it's an interesting subject that can say a lot about a person. Or not. Who knows.
The thing I've always wanted and would seek to have is a huge jacuzzi. Like a heated pool, probably outdoors but somewhere no one can see, and looks half natural, like a pond, and half like an in-ground hot tub. Clearly big enough for maybe ten people to fit in comfortably but only ever used by one or two people at a time, bottle of wine optional. No TVs. You don't look at it during the day because the little fake (but convincing) candles on the fake (but convincing) lilypads aren't lit then. Nor the post-mounted lanterns all around it.
I don't really care to have an excessive amount of money, or an excessively pretty car, or an excessively luxurious place to live to frame it with. The excessive material thing I want is this hot tub. And I think I'll always want it, in the back of my head, until I'm 40, have a permanent living situation and whatever the future has in place of financial security, and start building it myself, 'cause that is the type of person I am. The type who makes whatever he wants but doesn't have.