You get ranked in classes? Wow...
Well, I have angst because I am, in my opinion, to sensitive about things. I cry about the smallest things. Or is it my mom I have angst at? She criticizes every little thing I do. My friends, my choices, my everything. And I cry to let out my anger. Yeah, instead of doing what I would like to do (go stab something, yell, scream, punch, etc.) I cry.
And somehow, over all of these years, my mom has set up this reputation that I have. It's the reputation that I'm a good student who's very bright, which I have not been feeling the last couple of months. Random people at the masjid will come up and congratulate me on some academic thing or say "I heard *insert something about school here*". I'm like WTD cause I have no idea where they are getting this info from. Yeah, really confusing crap.
I hate getting a lot of attention, although I hate getting none. But my mom has set up a reputation for me. An all too good reputation for me. I wish it would disappear and some people would view me for who I am. Heh, heh, I'm not as good as she says.
Maybe she just likes bragging about me.
P.S.
I love my mom. I love my mom. I love my mom despite whatever I say.